夕阳、草地、granny，你还想要怎样更好地生活？
死亡的权利到底应不应该掌握在自己手里？我坚定地说是，但我周围的朋友、亲人告诉我，我这是自私，我这是在任性。一开始我是坚定的，我告诉自己，如果不能有尊严地活着，那我就会选择有尊严地死亡。把安眠药搅拌成我最爱的松糕，一口一口地吞咽下去。穿着我的旧睡衣，心里想念着我心爱的人，我以为我会平静地走完这一程。可是我还在颤抖，我不敢见到我爱的人们，我甚至不能够睁着眼睛。我在害怕。
一直一直，我都在挣扎，我怎么会像表面上看起来那么平静，我怎么会像表面上看起来那么决绝。所以当他把我最后的毒药搜刮一空，我彻底动摇了。我是不是真的像他们说的那样自私？我是不是应该拖着自己没有力气的残破身躯靠着输药管活在这个世界上？我是不是应该给我的孩子们更多的时间来面对这一切。
可是，最后的最后，我还是要离开他们啊。他们终将面对这样的事实。我把最好的年华都给了他们，我不后悔。但我真的不愿让他们为了照顾我劳累。更何况，我最大的愿望就是有尊严地死去。
尊严啊，尊严啊。
都走了吧，都散了吧，这一天总会到来，不如把选择的权利交给我。
坐在放映厅哭成傻逼，出来给奶奶打了电话，一遍又一遍地听Save my soul，不知道该怎么说：
You got what you wanted
Didn't you?
Don't know where your heart is
But mine's bruised
You knew when you started
That I'd lose
The blood on the carpet
Is not you
I tried to wash the scars and marks from under my skin
But you're etched in me like stone
You can't save me (yeah, yeah)
You call it love, but still you hate me? (yeah, yeah)
Lord I try and I can't say no
You're the pain and the medicine
One taste and I'm numb again
You can't save me (yeah, yeah)
Lord I try and I can't say no
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Ain't nothing I can do to save my soul
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
A moth to a candle
That's me to you
I was never this fragile
Or consumed
I'm covered in shrapnel
Through and through
And I wish I knew how to
Hate you
I try to wash the scars and marks from under my skin
But you're etched in me like stone
You can't save me (yeah, yeah)
You call it love, but still you hate me? (yeah, yeah)
Lord I try and I can't say no
You're the pain and the medicine
One taste and I'm numb again
You can't save me (yeah, yeah)
Lord I try and I can't say no
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Ain't nothing I can do to save my soul
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
You've got your chains wrapped around me so tight
Give me enough just to keep me alive
I try to run but it hurts every time, I try
Lord I try and I can't say no
(Oh Lord)
Lord I try and I can't say no
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Ain't nothing I can do to save my soul
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
You got what you wanted
Didn't you?
